This morning I looked at you
With eyes wide open
I don’t know why
But I wanted to kiss you then
Even if your lips aren’t mine to kiss
I kissed you once
Your lips unmoved
It meant, I’m sorry for all my moods
Your eyes smiled at me
A look of love
I kissed you again
Because
I love you too
And then still, you didn’t move
Neither body nor lips
I kissed you again, for I glimpsed your soul
The kindest, gentlest, yet…so hurt
Can I take the hurt from you
With stolen kisses on the morrow?
There she stands
A girl in blue
Apparently seen and heard
But is she really? It’s absurd
She is but an illusion
You conjured up
An ideal, a dream
A never was
Phantom girl, of the night
Why do you deceive and lie
Do you know what you leave behind?
A mess, a shattered, troubled mind
But you’re not real
Never really was
Be gone for good and find your own right
You’ve done enough
Be careful of the phantom game
The damage always will remain
For in your shame
There is no gain
First class ticket to station unknown
Journey starts, excitement grows
Feeling spoiled, everything new
Journey length; who knows
Straight track, smooth ride
Are we there yet?
Tickets checked, yes this is life
You are on the right track now
Stops? None, unless the cord is pulled
Tracks begin to curve
Blind bends, dark tunnels
Are we there yet?
Bumpy now, feeling sick
Pull the cord? Not yet
Look around, where are they?
Hiding behind their papers and books
Eat and drink, maybe even sleep
How long will I still weep?
Then it’s time, you have arrived
Home at last
I leave the ride
Songs of desperation
I played them for you
A moment, a love
A dream aloud
A kiss, a cry
Our rights
Our wrongs~ Sweet disposition, Temper Trap
It’s burning bright
The fire you ignite inside me
Our breaths… its fuel
Our whispers…the kindle
Our movements…the heat
Where I begin, you end
In the middle,
Our dreams
Our tears
Our laughter
We dance in the light of the moon
We crawl in the gutters of the shadows
We walk when it rains
We run when sunbeams play
This is life with you
Sweet disposition
Absolute, true, unpredictable, love
Fall down, get up
Fall down, stay down
Look at the world from down there
Can you see it?
The deceit, the lies, the empty words
Only when you down, then you see
The longer you stay down
The less you believe…the one that once believed so much
Let me lie down in your arms
Let me lie down under the covers
Let me lie beneath you so I can see you from down there
Let me lie to myself
I fell, I’m falling, I have fallen
Black: the absence of light
Not a colour
I see my lack of light
On my skin…holes
They let no light in
But they leak
They ooze
Slowly spilling me
Bits of me left behind
People step in it
They slip on it
Some even fall
I’m shrinking
Nothing replacing the lost
No intake, only an outlet
That’s the time I have left
Once I’ve lost it all
My time will be up
Shriveled up
Dried up
Dispersed
Free
The moon dictates the tides
She can not help
He draws her tight
Ebbs and flows
She can not help
She falls in love
Waiting patiently
To see him at night
But the moon goes dark
For many nights
Then slowly turning bright
She feels so much.
The tides arise
Her feelings; shooting stars
Meteors traveling in the night
Crashing into the moon mid flight
He has no defenses
He’s vulnerable too
She: bound by the gravitational pull
He: bound to be distant and cold…
Only men walked on the moon
What can she do?
She cries and cries
Salty water to expel
How long will it take?
She doesn’t know
But sorrow for now
Is her only home
For he is the moon
And she is the sea
Never meant to be
Feeling the calm after the storm
My body relaxed, soaking in the serenity
My mind not troubled, thinking clearly
My feelings under control, no turmoil
Balanced and focused I face the world
Mr perfect, with all your charms
You like the ladies attention
But none of them is worth a mention
You guard your heart
You blame your past
How convenient and deviant
Your hearts been broken
No love can be the token
To fit the slot
Just like a clot
It only gets stuck
Girl, you’re out of luck
One girl’s hopes and dreams
Her heart already shattered
You will hurt her too
Shame on you
No-one can love me now
Shattering realisation of time lost
My body reverberates from the cost
Don’t fall in love with me
You will only get hurt
I can never be yours, never my own
I am the poison that will take your life
I am the addiction with no respite
Walk away and leave me here
But then the flower blooms in the snow
The desert rose blooms with hardly any moisture
The flower that only blooms when consumed by fire
The rare flower that blooms once in a lifetime
I am a rare exotic flower
I’ll bloom only in the harshest of circumstances
Waiting for the right gardener
The right nuances
Will it be air, water or fire
The man that sees the desire
It will take a special man
One that recognises the unrecognisable
New Beginnings 