Hand like chisels
Shaping the rock face
Corroded by sheer cussedness
Chafed and cracked
Limb like stalactites
Minerals leaked from pores
Reaching out
Forming new tunnels
Feet like rivers
Crawling along the bottom
Running through the middle
Looking for escape
Body like space
Quiet and aware
Fault lines of energy
Carrying the air
Mind like presence
Five ways enhanced
Twenty-one grams of unknown
Highway of thoughts
The heart dies a slow death
Shedding hope like the
blossoms falling from the cherry trees
till only shadow remains
a black hole in the chest
You make me feel safe
Not from the world
From within
You open yourself
You share yourself
I didn’t ask
You can’t help it
Our souls are the same
We are bound by more than love
We understand without words
You are beautiful to me as I am to you
You love my imperfection
I love the way you express yourself
Safe I know I’ll be
In your loving arms, I’ll see
What love can be
Friendship was just an illusion…with a benefit
You lied to me, no set communication boundaries
Your reflection of your own behaviour, another waiver
Did you provoke a lie?
Why do you hide behind your lie?
Something more or something less, I guess
I walk the way I choose, you lose
Alone…my journey
I live not a lie
If ever there comes one
Never false, I will give way to what’s true
Unlike you
Winter fell upon my soul
I’ve found me, I am free
I am leading now, not blind
In your shame you will cry
Drop your hand, and live your lie
I long to be free
Free from this black drape
Free from the constraints
I put them there
They are wrapped tight
Suffocating, restricting… Me
I cut into my skin
I feel the pain
It helps for a minute
Then it’s back
The blackness inside me
Making my insides turn
Like the time life told me
I’m going to be sick
The anxiety tearing holes
On the inside
I take a drug to replace life
To stop myself from feeling
Still not free
If I’m left free to feel
I will die
Freedom is feeling
And I can’t be allowed to feel
No way of coping
No way of changing
That which life told me
She cries
The sea calls her
Will she forget?
The sound of his voice
The touch of his hands
The soft look in his eyes
His tears drew her closer
Their tears will soon unite
Dust to dust
Salt to salt
The sea calls her home
Likely to have an unfortunate outcome. That is my love life. Doomed. I have given up on love. I truly have. I’ve been listening to a song from Bring me the Horizon called Doomed. It’s me. That’s how I feel. Men are vampires. They can have my heart. But they will never have me. Not the person I am. No opening up anymore. No sharing of thoughts or feelings.
It’s done.
This girl is gone
A gone girl
Raped, hated, mistreated
I dare you; try
To win my love
You will struggle
Like a fish out of water
You see
I once was
I once loved
I once felt
Now, what you see is what I am
Skin and bones
Cut off my wings and come lock me up Just pull the plug yeah, I’ve had enough Tear me to pieces, sell me for parts You’re all vampires so hereYou can have my heart
The world’s a funeral, a room of ghosts
No hint of movement, no sign of pulse
Only an echo, just skin and bone
They kick the chair but we, we help tie the ropeYou can have my heart
So come rain on my parade
‘Cause I wanna feel it
Come shove me over the edge
‘Cause my head is in overdrive
I’m sorry, but it’s too late
And it’s not worth saving
So come rain on my parade
I think we’re doomed
I think we’re doomed
And now there is no way backYou must’ve made some kind of mistake
I asked for death, but instead I’m awake
The devil told me “No room for cheats”
I thought I sold my soul, but he kept the receiptSo leave the light on, I’m coming home
It’s getting darker, but I’ll carry on
The sun don’t shine, but it never did
And when it rains, it fucking pours
But I think I like it
And you know that I’m in love with the mess
I think I like it
So I’ve reached my expiry date
Sooner than I thought
Quicker than I thought
More ruthless than I thought
Why do people take their own lives?
I can tell you.
I know why
Will I do it?
Never, for I’m not afraid to live
I have taken my risks, I’ve bared my soul
I don’t regret loving you
You however will come to realise
What you’ve lost
And that will hurt more
I feel sorry for you
You could have been so happy
But now you’ll never know
You’ve lost me forever and a day
Hope you enjoyed the ride
I have my uses, and you used me well
Now you can ride your next victim
Take care and move on
Driving down a familiar road
Overwhelmed by a sense of loss
Another family I gave up
More loved ones lost
I have labeled my life to death
I have closed myself off to feel
The butterflies are dead
The excitement is gone
I no longer love, I only exist
Where you left me is where I’ll stay
My hope like a smothered candle
Only a wisp of smoke remains
I walk no more
I dance no more
I’m ready to be used again
I have some use left still
So take me now baby
See if you can use me still
Before you move on
To pastures new
You’ll never know how much you hurt me
Even if I write it here
Even if I say it to your face
You’ll never know
You’ll never know how much I cried
When you weren’t looking
When you were thinking, only of yourself
You’ll never know how broken you left me
While you were playing
While you were experimenting
You’ll never know how much I care for you
Because you weren’t looking
Because you weren’t paying attention
You’ll never find another like me
You lost what you never knew you had
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