New Beginnings

Emotional roller-coaster of love and lust


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C is for…

Colour. You might wonder why colour? Have you ever “assigned” a colour to something like a day (blue monday common one) or an emotion (love is red) or anything really. I do. Like love; for me it’s grey. Because love is never straightforward, it’s never black and white. Or time; for me it’s white. Because time only moves forward. Not backwards. Therefore time is the present and the future. A blank page, waiting to be coloured. And as life happens, I colour it.

My recent timeline has been painted with dark colours. Black, dark blue, brown, mauve, with little dots of green and red scattered at random. Times when someone told me something profound or went out of their way to support me, to comfort me. Yellow is my favourite colour. It’s warm, vibrant, the colour associated with the sun. I’m very much like that when I’m at my best. A warm vibrant, kind and considerate person.

So why would I be grateful for colour? Because without it, I would just be a blank page, but with it, I’m more. I’m  still alive. I’m still using my imagination and turning what was predominantly a dark world, into a brighter one. And hopefully, I bring some colour to the lives of others too.


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Better

Breaking the Silenc3

Here we are, you’re one of my best friends.
But I’ve come here to say this is the end.
You take that one look into my eyes.
You know me so well, you know this is no lie.
Baby, I promise that I will tell you why,
But you have to promise me, that I wont see you cry.
You say ok, but I know you lied.
Before my first words, I see the water build in your eyes.
I let you know that I never wanted to part.
Why would I? You still have me heart.

I begin to explain the life that I live.
“What they can offer, I can never give.
As much as I try to keep the truth inside,
There’s some things I don’t think I can provide.
I know that I say I love you so much now,
Yet at times I worry if…

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You

you_colour_my_world_by_withlove_marcela-d6jhurr.jpgSimilarities drew us together

A drawing in pencil

A picture of two

We shared, we laughed

We drew closer

I wasn’t looking for love

Only understanding

I wanted not to be judged

I wanted to find myself

I longed to be free from pain

So much pain

When I gave up, you didn’t

When you gave up, I didn’t

I looked at you

The picture changed

A drawing in pen… of you

On my body

My heart

My soul

My fingers trace the inked lines on your body

My heart sees the cuts on your heart

My soul feels the pain in your soul

I let you draw on my body with yours

I feel you imprint love on my heart

I let you paint my soul with hope

How beautifully you use the brush

You colour my world


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Send in the clown

Clown

Laugh, don’t cry now

Wipe your tears and put on a smile

The world loves a smile

When my heart is breaking

When my life is changing

When you treat me like nothing

I wear my smile like a mask

It fits me perfectly

It hides the hurt

It hides the real me from the world

I have a clown in my head

His face is painted white, his lips rosy red

He has stars for eyes

When I cry, he laughs

My tears remove the paint from his face

While I sleep, he paints his face again

My clown has no name, but I do